I think our generation are the leftovers. The ones left behind to pick up the pieces of our failed society. As twenty-some-things our freedoms are limited and our privacy is disrupted and invaded without us even knowing it.

We are expected to contribute to society by politicians and past generations who have destroyed and polluted it. I can’t help thinking that they won’t be much left of the worlds resources to enjoy after all the drilling, mining and fast paced consumerism has eaten away the Earth’s core.

We are the people who are going to have to come up with solutions and clean up the mess that the previous humans morons didn’t care about. It’s not our fault, millennials are the victims. Our only crime is when are birthdays fall.

Privilege is a source of cruelty. The battle of the haves and have not’s. I’ve lost faith in the system because the system seems to be everyone for themselves. That’s capitalist greed for you. Capitalism seems to define happiness as whether we have money or not.

We have political discussion to decide what is best but it never seems to get any better. One power is overthrow for another by a little “x” in a box, who has the most firepower or the highest bidder. Politicians aren’t even organised enough to work out their expenses let alone run a whole country’s budget. I think we should all be able to vote on how our taxes are spent instead of pretending we have a democracy.

The low election turnouts are because of the promises of a Land of Hope and Glory. The results show no promise. Obviously politicians can’t handle the responsibility. And based on that we know politics is two faced.

All the dreams in each manifesto is never quite as described. If they can fake sincerity and keep offshore funds than I can sell fake knock off goods down the market. I reckon there is one good politician in every hundred. It would be better to decide who wins elections with Pokémon cards.

When will the austerity be over? Personally I think we all need to make more cuts to finally clear the deficit – starting with Westminster throats. Governments can’t create social cohesion because the voters should make the policies. It’s easier to run the world on fear and bullshit. The future is scary business. With many things beyond our control.

Will there be an NHS left for the next generation? Will I have to pay for private health care and a sick bed so I can get treated for any nasty diseases I catch?

When you grow up can you find and land a good job?

Will I ever be able to afford my own home?

Will the trains actually be on time this week?

Can your favourite football team ever win the league?

Will I ever pay off my student debt?

When all the seas are poisoned what will replace my fish and chip diet?

Will we have a World War Three?

Not very uplifting thoughts. I don’t feel any safer or better off knowing we have a nuclear defence program to protect me from shrapnel. Soon we’ll all be the leftovers. Trying to plan for the apocalypse is the best risk management strategy.

I’ve realised what a terrible consumer I am. I’m doing myself a disservice. From here I’m going to lift myself out of poverty, debt and fading expectations. I’m hoping to one day to have the prospect of getting on the property ladder instead of being a financial refugee. I’m learning to balance the books. Give up silly spending habits and investing the leftovers into my future.

Everyone isn’t created equal where wealth and power is concerned. The rich elite are buying and bribing their way up the pyramid. Wages have hardly gone up, people can’t afford buy a decent house and the recession doesn’t seem to have taught us much about money.

Lately I feel more like a leftover. How are future generations and my kids (when I impregnate someone) going to deal with all these questions, ifs and buts?

A university education isn’t cheap, you can’t pay off your debts and retire by working for free. That’s why some students take up pole dancing and prostitution to pay for their education.

I’ve gained lots of blogging experience so it’s time to take this blog beyond a hobby and a series of me ranting on about my problems. Therefore I’ve started my part time based adventure to supplement my income. It’s been a great student chapter, but over time this site needs to evolved into something quite different.

By now you will have noticed the a fresh new look. You’ve probably already noticed the ads and site changes including a new layout and blog design.

Since launching this blog I’ve never monetised it or placed advertising on the site despite it costing me money to run and time to develop. I’ve worked out I’ve spent over £700 keeping the site running, not including the time spend on it. I’ve sacrificed many hot student meals keeping this thing alive, I hope you feel guilty. Stopping this blog would save me money.

Still no logo design yet as I can’t do the creative graphic bit. I’ve never used Photoshop. I know my weaknesses and any artwork I use on here is usually clipart and stock photos.

I need a logo designed for the new site (any graphic design student volunteers out there willing to give it ago?). Maybe in hindsight I should have taken creative media as a degree course.

There are many unanswered questions I have about the future and  how life is going to work out. I’m starting my own social movement and a republic to wealth. Taking everything in moderation except my mission to save, invest and get debt free.

We are faced with a social handicap. It’s full of bullshit promises from clueless leaders and media idiots. Society has gone to hell, I don’t what to join it.

The media and TV is just a distraction so we take our eyes off the ball. The mainstream crap on TV makes our heads go numb. Many of us don’t notice we are trapped in the matrix of a dying world. It is us who have to create something from the rubble and make something of the shambles.

We need to wake from the bad dream. Don’t be frightened to hope. The hopeless disappointment keeps us all going. If we aren’t careful we’ll all be the leftovers.

I guess you can feel my desperation and dismal mood. I’m having an early midlife crisis. Not bad for age 22. At least I can get it out of the way.

We can all bitch and moan about money and our difficult lives. On brighter note at least we have the Internet, flushing toilets and I’m not earning a dollar a day to make top name brands.

Society hasn’t learned anything. Wars still happen, bombs explode, dictators still rule and the violence on TV is depressing. I’ve vetoed society today or maybe my judgement is off. Either way misery, fear and desperation surround us all. I’ll probably feel better if I go buy a pack of cream cakes to speed up my diabetes.

When you reach your 20’s things change. It’s a time to figure out what you want to do and who you want to become. What can I teach you about finding your way when I’ve hardly lived myself?

Growing up is hard. Young and stupid is always easier. As a 20 something you develop an unknown phobia for the future. Here is my advice for 20 something’s who need to review their lives:

1. Get ready to make lots of changes. You’ll set goals and make plans. Be ready to adjust them and ditch some. It’s is time to discover your potential.
2. You get a job or have many jobs. They may not be what you expected. You have to hold it down. Everyone has a gift to give the world. It may be in the job you do or a different “calling”. Find that calling and follow your heart.
3. Your student and college days are over. You can’t live like a slob anymore because Mummy and Daddy can’t clean up after you. A tidy house is a tidier mind.
4. Friendship will come and go. Some relationships will last some will fizzle out and go down different paths as people move away or don’t return your phone calls. Work on the relationships that matter to you most.
5. I’ve had my share of heartbreak even as a 20 something. You can’t force love and have to let past lovers move on with their lives. When you breakup remember it happened for a reason and that “the one” is still out there.
6. Exercise so you get fitter not fatter.
7. Watch your diet. Eat the healthier stuff with the occasional salt and sugar explosion.
8. If you smoke or vape then quit.
9. Read more. Read for fun, read for education.
10. Sort out your money and finances.
11. Maximise something’s, minimise and eliminate others.
12. Experience the world. Go on real life adventure. Stop letting technology eat up your time.
13. Be afraid, but do it anyway.
14. You have a voice. Use your right to vote.
15. Learn to chill out and slow down.
16. You are in your twenties, you are going to make lots of mistakes. Don’t beat yourself up over them.
17. Listen to older and wiser people than yourself.
18. Always keep learning from your own experience and mistakes.
19. Your 20’s are the best days of your life. Enjoy them. Party hard but plan harder. Getting this stuff right now will set you up for life and build your future.
20. I best break the news to you now before you hit your 30’s and find out the hard way. Santa doesn’t exist.

Don’t be a bystander in your life. It’s not going to be easy. You need to do the difficult things that no one else does. It won’t all come together all at once. It takes practise and determination. You don’t have to do any of the list above, make your own but if you don’t do anything you still be in the same position next year.

The time for change is now. Your Happy New Year starts now. Enjoy the holidays and prepare your productivity plan for next year. Next year is operation 20 Changes for your 20’s.

Another year has almost finished and we are about to roll into another one. Where does our time go?

What have I achieved this year:

A Job – It turns out I’m employable and I got a full time job to start my career. I have a few issues with my supervisor but hey I’m working.

Hols – Enjoyed a wild vacation. Which cost a fortune but was worth it. I needed a big break away from work. The down side to holidays is coming back to face lots of emails and a pile of paperwork.

Too Much Beer – I’ve drank too much beer and had too many binges. So much so that my liver doesn’t like me anymore. Next year I must cut back.

Fitter not fatter – This year I feel fitter than last year. I’ve been going to the gym, bike riding and clay pigeon shooting. Shooting and hunting isn’t a sport in the UK it’s more of an American thing where they kill big game and kids in class rooms.

Family Time – I spent more time with family and friends. Which is awesome and very rewarding for your soul. Devoting your time to family is important. Never forget that.

New Motor – Bought a new motor, she a beauty featuring a stereo upgrade to pump out Classic FM and Hip Hop.

What I haven’t achieved this year:

I’m still single – Although it would be nice to find a new relationship being single has given me space and time to discover myself. Failed relationships hurt, even the short lived ones but looking back the ladies in my life were unsuitable and incompatible. Whether they ditched me or I ditched them is never nice but getting out of the wrong relationship is the right thing to do. Don’t rush love. The ladies will come along again. Being single is not such a bad thing. Who needs a girlfriend when there’s pizza and porn.

The numbers never lie – I need to get smarter with my money. It’s harder to be happy without money and owing massive debt stops you experiencing life. Having extra money for fun and the future will make you happier.

Lazy Procrastinator – I’ve tolerated my laziness. I haven’t been as creative or productive as I would have liked. In areas like this blog, starting new products, training and doing stuff around the flat things haven’t come together. I need motivating. My lazy ar$e needs to get into gear.

This week I completely ran out of money. I hate been in debt and behind with the bills. It’s an awful feeling stuck with a lack of cash flow and trying to live payday to payday. Juggling my money feels like robbing Peter to pay Paul where I’m just bouncing my debt and credit around.

Last month I missed two payments. One on my credit card, one on the water bill and my council tax is already two months behind. The council sent me a lovely red letter to remind me.

Debt can become a vicious cycle and you end up in a debt trap where money is bouncing around from creditor to creditor. As the interest builds up the debt never goes down and eventually the bubble bursts and you don’t have enough cash to cover all the repayments and living expenses.

My outgoings and expenses have exceeded my pay. I have worked my way into a corner, a debt rut and I can’t climb out. I have to admit that I am not in a very good place at the moment. Money is taking its toll out on me and my debt is stressing me out.

It’s turned in to an embarrassing financial juggling act every month. I need every penny just to live. It’s sad, I hate the situation. The worst thing is I’ve done this to myself, admitting that isn’t easy.

If I had no debt there would be a chance to save a little, but that’s not the case. I want to be in a position to put some money into savings instead of towards debt every month.

If you have no idea where your money is going you’ll end up living in a constant financial mess. Debt will catch you out and hold you back from living the good life.

You can balance transfer credit cards to a lower interest rate, take out more loans to cover other loans, borrow £20 here and there from friends and family but the bottom line is if your debt and bad habits are not managed and controlled it will get out of hand.

I could move back in with my parents which would save lots of cash and knock around £900 from my outgoings. I would take advantage of the free rent, food, water and internet in exchange for cleaning duties. Having to move back home isn’t what I really want. I doubt I could cope with that. In fact I don’t think Dad could too.

While the financial savings are extremely good and it would help me get my money in order I doubt it would work out.

So from here I’m going to produce a spending report and created a monthly budget. It’s not going to be pretty reading. I’m seeing a whole lot of red and cut backs to move forward.

I need a journey of self improvement. I admit I don’t know what that is right now. There is nothing worse than not knowing and trying to get your $hit together. I want to become someone better.

I’m a shy and introvert guy. When I was as a kid I preferred to keep to myself. The only time I feel outgoing and social is when I go out to enjoy a beer, get a bit pissed or when I’m with people I’ve known for a long time.

I enjoy the quiet life, I couldn’t cope with fame or celebrity fuss. Attention seeking means you have to keep up a front, engage everybody and pretend to be someone you’re not. You have to live for everyone else. I wouldn’t want that lifestyle or pressure.

However for some reason I feel too stressed out suffering headaches, stomach ache and pent-up tension. I don’t know where the anxiety has come from, I’m guessing it’s from loneliness, money troubles, my demanding boss and other relationship problems.

There’s a lot on my mind. I think this job and my last relationship was the wrong move. Us young guys worry about stuff too. Our bodies, our health, our careers, finding love. It’s not all wild parties and thinking with our dicks.

For the first time, I’m feeling the grip of life and independence of being on my own. I’m in a moody grump or just flat lining with no highs or lows?

I think it’s harder to be happy man in the modern technology age. There is too much too fast. Life should be a chilled in your 20’s. The human race seems poorer than ever. Wages are frozen, costs are up and don’t even mention buying a house unless you can sell your liver on the black market. In real terms we earn less than our parents did at their age.

Life for our parents was easier and more carefree. In the eighties my parents said things changed into a branding and consumerism culture. Then there’s the terror killing sprees on the news every other day. It depressing stuff. How do you stay optimistic in the middle of a reality check?

So what do I want? What does happiness and success mean in your twenties? What sort of things makes you feel good, bad and worry too much?

You might feel you don’t measure up in the trouser department. Don’t worry about your penis size or then lengths and widths you see on the porn sets. Sex and love making will come with experience. You might want to also consider where you put it and always take precautions, be safe and carry a couple of condoms in your wallet at all times when for when you get lucky.

You don’t have to find “the one” in your twenties. Enjoy the dating game and make the most of your “single me time”. You can settle down, get married and have kids in all in due time. For now experiment.

If you are worried about getting fired or losing your job then update that CV and start looking for something else. Earning more is always nice. As your career develops, you get promotion you’ll boost your income along the way.

I agree things aren’t exactly going my way. I’m finding it hard to relax and unwind at night without a beer. I feel like my life is out of my control. I need to figure out how to be happy and  tranquil.

I have to fend for myself. I have no solutions to offer myself right now other than to pause, take breath and have some timeout to lower the stress levels. Getting more sleep would probably help too.

At least I’m not going bald, grey and having to shave my head yet. The assignment hasn’t gone wrong. I live for the mystery and the answers. Maybe I shouldn’t strive and push for someone or something better. I battle against change or the kind of person I want to be. Right now I just show up on here as I am and how I feel.